Colicky baby + sick preschooler = Lots of drama

Plenty of drama happening at home last week. Josh had viral infection and was down with high fever, sore throat, cough and flu...so super cranky. He had very poor appetite and barely ate or drank. Even when the high fever subsided, he still refused to eat or drink except a bit of milk. I was pretty worried he would get dehydrated, so brought him to KK hospital to check if there was a need to put him on drip, but he finally drank some glucose water otw there. For the next few days, the fever was gone but he threw lots of tantrums and continued his food and water strike. Worst was he would cough till he vomited. So we had 2 merlions at home n lots of cleaning up to do :(

On Sun, we left Josh at MIL's place as he wanted to stay and didn't want to go home with us. Good thing is he is willing to eat over there, so hope it will help him to recover fast. 

Now is my turn to be sick.... must be virus from Josh... trying to rest more before he returns home tomorrow.

Feeling tired :'(

Jaxton has a bad case of colic. It got worst the past week and he vomits after each feed....had to keep changing my clothes and his after each puke. It's tough to keep your cool and nerves trying to calm down a screaming and kicking baby....think our neighbors must hate us by now, especially when he cries so often in the middle of the night. I barely slept for the past month, only interrupted 3-4 hours sleep every night. Jax feeds every 2 hours and takes 45mins to finish each feed, so before long, he will be crying for milk again. Apart from lack of sleep, I am also suffering from aching back and arms as he wants to be carried all the time. Then at 6.30am, Joshton will wake up and pull me out of bed. In between caring for both kids, I have to squeeze in time for washing bottles and pumping milk. That leaves barely time even for a toilet break and meals are gulped down as fast as I can. On a bad weekend morning, I only managed to go pee and brush my teeth at 11am. On top of everything, there is still our house reno stuff to coordinate. 

I am physically, mentally and emotionally tired. Trying hard to fight the dreaded post natal depression, which took me a year to snap out the last time. I hate the dark side...extreme negative thoughts are always on your mind....although I was functioning on the outside, inside I was a total wreak. At times it's hard to keep my sanity and control my emotions, and the only thing that keeps me going now is a mother's love for her 2 babies.